so at the moment i have what i can only describe as 'an itch' .
i want to go places but im not sure where. i dont want to stay here for the rest of my life, i want to see the world, live it, experience it. i feel like im drifting at the moment, just going where life takes me; i dont want that! i want to move abroad, but dont know how. i want to go to canada, australia, mexico, india, china, japan....but will never be able to afford to. i want to eat out in fancy restaurants, have weekends away just because.
i want to make things but dont know what. i want to sew, to paint, to bake but have no motivation and no faith in myself.
i want me and marcus to get married but dont know what i want to do.
im having lots of 'in the future...' moments, but i want them to be 'now' moments.