I don't know what to do. I'm really struggling to find my roller derby love right now. I think the fact I can only practice once a week so I'm not as confident as everyone else doesn't help. Because of this, I KNOW I won't be good enough to play in games, which leads me to think 'why bother'. I can't do PAYG sessions anymore, so dropping in isn't an option, but having paid out for skates, I don't want to just drop it. I'm tired all the time so come 8pm I'd rather be in bed than sweating it out on track.